I’ve recently finished a book which I connected with because the main character (Trevor) seems to share several traits and experiences which are not unlike mine. It’s a true story of a man who is exploring himself through an alternative form of group therapy. There are many things discussed in the book, both drug and non-drug related. Trevor’s insights eventually lead him to leave the sessions because he sees how the therapist (Carole) in the group begins to slowly abuse her position of power. Even though he took out an immense amount from the therapy he discovers that towards his final years it has become more of a unnecessary crutch.
I will be posting several extracts over the next week which helped me see things from a different perspective.
Page 12 from ‘Triplepoint’ by Trevor Trueheart
“Almost always, part of the repression consists of feelings of guilt. Carole labeled this “past-time” guilt. It is unleashed with the liberation of repression. Present-time guilt, on the other hand, is created when you fail to fulfill obligations, day-to-day duties, and that which Carole called ‘framework’. This was one of Carole’s most-used tools of psychotherapy. It is the label she used for those activities one must do to get through life productively and guilt-free. This could include paying one’s bills on time, meeting one’s obligations and commitments, and, in general, meeting the challenges of life in a responsible manner. Any framework break will result in present—time guilt, which acts like a magnet hooking into your past-time guilt from a repressed incident. Thus present-time guilt can act as a valve operator to your past-time repressed guilt. You can feel swamped in all this guilt, which is out of proportion to your present-time framework break. With this kind of aperture into your personal past-time guilt you expose yourself to, in addition to your own repressed energy, pathos from the collective unconscious mind. This situation demands “asepsis” and maintenance of each and every piece of your framework.”
I think procrastination is a common human characteristic but I never considered why ignored responsibilities seem to eventually cause more distress than what is actually at stake at the time. Additionally, people tend to put thenselves in the position of the victim and declare that none or very little of it is actually their fault.
Furthermore, I learned that when someone is engaged in some sort of non-ordinary state of consciousness these ‘present-time’ guilts bubble up fairly quickly. This helps them in several ways, it points out that these are the changes that need to made in one’s life because they are obviously bothersome, additionaly this ‘present-time’ guilt energy can be used to explore similar feelings that have been felt in the past which may be linked to repressed memories. What is nice about this is that one can spend a day exploring themself and end up with a list of things they can do to be happier in life. Of course, the hardest part is actually getting yourself to do what needs to be done. It’s very easy to write down that you need to fulfill some responsibility and never actually do it. But when you maintain your responsibilities to a reasonable extent (it’s hard to be perfect) and with each goal you fulfill, an enormous weight leaves your shoulders. I think that if you can alleviate ‘present-time’ and ‘past-time’ (unconscious) guilt you soon begin to help ease ‘future-time’ guilt. This is not only because you are more responsible and you feel less guilty but also because less ‘past-time’ guilt is flowing through the valve which opens when you do happen to ignore some responsibility. Ideally, you can begin to live your life more fully because this particular cloud of negativity has significantly lessened. I would also like to mention that an altered state is not needed to realize any of these things or to follow these ideas.